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I talk a lot about trying to find out who I am and what I want to do. So, what does that say about me? I guess I’m unhappy with what I’m doing for a living, overall. A creative stuck in a boring non-creative job. I make up for that lack of “fun” by filling as much of my free time with as many creative things as I can.

Recently, like yesterday, I got some more inspiration from Sue Bryce, of Creative Live fame.

She said some things on her Confront Your Challenges course: https://www.creativelive.com/courses/confront-your-challenges-sue-bryce that really made me think.
(When this airs on CL, you can buy the course and watch it anytime you want.) She was questioning a participant as to whether they really wanted to be a photographer, if they weren’t doing what they needed to do to be one. Then, Segment 10, Emotional Honesty, had me in tears. (Most anytime I hear stories about people doing what they love after being told they can’t, I break down.) I think I have some unresolved issues in that arena!

Anyway, that brought me to this kind of thought process:

For my New Year’s Resolution, “Be the person you want to be. Do the things you want to do.” Well… Then:
Who do I want to be? What do I want to do?

As Sue asked her participant, I ask myself: What do I do for free or spend most of my time doing, that I should be doing as my career?

Outside of my day job, I spend time:
Being with my kids/family
Helping people do what they want to do/Consulting/Advising
Shooting Music Videos
Shooting pictures
Shooting home movies
Writing
Taking Classes
Watching Movies and Television and Videos
Reading Internet Stories or forums
Selling and buying online
Gardening
Traveling
Reef Aquarium Keeping

What I want to do but don’t spend time doing or at least haven’t in the past year:
Editing
Shooting more videos and films
Dekludging my life

What ideas stop me from doing more of the above?
1) Time? (not really)
2) Money? (not really)
3) Thinking that there are already resources out there for people to accomplish the above? (Somewhat)
4) I, also, get side-tracked every time I run into a negative person that I have to deal with. I lose a week or more of creative productivity.

I once worked out for myself, that my job in life was to be a student, I was constantly learning things and figured I’d be doing that for the rest of my life and beyond. So, that is what I concentrated on. I think now that I must adjust that. Especially being a parent. I won’t stop learning but I need to start teaching and not the “those who can’t do, teach” kind of teaching but teach by doing and doing what I do very well.

So, for 2015, I’m upping everything I do.

I’m not sure exactly what that means but these notes are more for me to look over and apprise. So, we’ll see.