FEB 11, 2025
Tuesday, February 11th, 2025Please excuse this small rant. I just feel like I should start getting things off of my chest and not hold them in.
Damn. February is slipping away and I can’t say I’ve accomplished much in these 11 days…
in 2024, after nearly a year out of work, I was lucky enough to replace a friend (who took another career direction) on a show that turned out to be a great experience. Sure it had it’s frustrations; my wife wonders why I picked this career. She said, “I thought you’d be happy but you seemed upset a lot of the time.” (Yeah, I thought that too! But I guess that’s part of growing and learning. Or is it?) And now I’m back to being unemployed, as of Feb 1.
As I’m preparing for my trailer course to start soon, I’m rushing through a Post Super Post-Production Delivery Deliverables course while also trying to cut a practice trailer. But I end up spending a lot of time just noodling around on the Internet… (There’s also this story-telling course I’m pecking my way through…) I know at the root of what I want to learn is rhythm. (I also have this Rhythm Course and a Trailer Music Course that are on the back burner…) I just feel there’s so much to learn and not enough time and then I just end up not doing anything, it feels like.
I’m “busy” and as I’ve learned, that is not a good thing but ultimately, I do get small gains, here and there. There are successes in parenting, which is the most important thing to me. So, that’s good. But so much of my life is out of whack.
I’m in an ungodly amount of debt and have had to cash out my retirement just to survive.
The funny thing is… I still have hope.
I’m going to employ a “make small gains” philosophy and just continue to push and try to focus.
Wish me luck! I wish for your success too.
